Where there was an idea to chase Based on naivety and assumptions Retribution comes swinging in full force I still refuse to face myself In a dream, I tried to set me free Tense temptation circled me Twist and turning into half-decent lies Something about staying single doesn't sound too bad I’m sorry it built up I can’t keep on this solitude Blind-sighted premonitions Death on contact with reality I refuse to accept there’s nothing more It is fine if we live in the present Coming up to an idle state of life Growing ideals keep you around Our attachment made in course of fear Transient spaces I’m stuck and alone When we fall back to spoilers all along We smile in memories that never happened I’m sorry it built up I can’t keep on this solitude Blind-sighted premonitions Death on contact with reality I’m sorry it built up I cared, maybe I didn’t Blind-sighted premonitions Death on contact

Part 1: Infatuation I fell to knees again When the world was fast asleep The first and last thing on my mind Troubled thoughts that keep you around Give me your optimism And I’ll show you my faith Little hints of foundation Avoidance pent up to burst Excited at something new Coming to terms with another trip I apologize for the fast track A love made on curious discoveries I live on unfair standards You’re not but I am yours A countdown happens For the start that never will come   Part 2: Ailurophobia (Immature) Reflections in my car Keep telling me you’ll stay Memories in objects Never traversed to real life Part of you was still here My mind replayed my chances Coping with your flaws An identity crisis I’d fight for this to the end But you can’t see my side I tell myself no more I keep lying to myself Fluctuating feelings We never chanced upon For now, I’m naïve I don't know what pain is yet Addicted to jolts of joy Little things are important to me In a certain state of mind A life founded on assumptions I remain alone So feelings can't betray my mind Dependency finds hold Back-sliding, how I never learn Part 3: Paleophobia (Aged) Hopes and desire, my wants and needs A lack of willpower to forge a way alone Strangers to friends in tangled words Charms to repeat, I apologize to you A vulnerability too scarce to show There lacks any poetry within honesty Melodrama changed nothing, left us alone Isn't this scary? So much was left unsaid How did you slip so far away? Why do my lips shut tight when you’re in my way What is it about you? I find alluring Please tell me before I go insane Part 4: Ornithophobia (How?) My imagination can only come so close to reality Unseen futures and unfolded stories But we’ll always stay as projections in my mind You would never see me I could never touch you We will never meet There’s nothing more I want than to hold you, now You doubt but you’re so pretty inside out But what can I do to get to understand you? Not of what I dug But what I have to ask For I’m a viewer, I’m a stranger All I have is your voice, a cartoon character When all I needed is existence I love your thoughts, your mind and your tired smile There’s no one I would rather Space out in the weather Birds of a feather, flock together How are we so similar but yet so distant? I wanna be yours, I wanna be yours   Part 5: Infatuation (Cycle) My thumping heartbeat Deceived me that someone was outside A hollow chest Sounding so full with childish whining Awkward air still lingers We're still nothing in the times I fantasized In the time I played myself I've sobered up from the emotions Did we always get along? Or did intentions change things Were you always this reckless? Saying things that you didn't mean On the night I said goodbye The walls of clashing noises Finally made sense to me Torrents of sound was all I was forever

Lesser words in helping hands I met you amidst this world of pain I think you smiled, I can’t quite tell A list of places we could go It is weird for anything When I don’t know if you’re a guy I’ll wade through your stress and set you free In conversations, routines and more In a trap of trying times Give me patience that I need When I wonder about us two Twisted signs aren’t what I need But if you could understand All the motions in my head Turn on the lights, and you might see What I want to build with you Lack of replies begin to hurt I realised I’ve fallen in love The build-up is flawed, I overthink I’ve compromised myself again Waiting to be all on my own Am I being a nuisance again? Amidst the times we waste in here Another day nears the end of it all In a trap of trying times Give me patience that I need When I wonder about us two Twisted signs aren’t what I need But if you could understand All the motions in my head Turn on the lights, and you might see What I want to build with you

Things always seem ‘meant to be’ In broken street lights This flirting is nothing more Than linguistic anxiety No expectations can lead To a clot of wasted time You don’t want me to part ways But you won’t go with me I felt your pain in my skin Vague understanding We still need time to be free From residual damage I could be all of your words When silence kills me Not everything has to be So literal sometimes I couldn’t care less ‘Is this all there is?’ And everything you attempted to fix I don’t think it matters to me I will fill this chasm Of your past and doubts And we could be close After all These feelings are fluttering With a weight that stops it It’s the closest I ever got To being far away I want to break into songs To dance with you all night But that's not how dating ever works When we're lethargic I couldn’t care less ‘Is this all there is?’ And everything you attempted to fix I don’t think it matters to me I will fill the chasm Of your past and doubts And we could be close After all Da, da da da, da da da Da da da da Da, da da da, da da da Da da da da I couldn’t care less ‘Is this all there is?’ And everything you attempted to fix I don’t think it matters to me I will fill the chasm Of your past and doubts And we could be close After all

Keep me grounded in here Till I learn to fly again Not all stories have an end This one won't go anywhere My heart turns to butter Melted down, a slurry mess Adrenaline shots please Steel me long enough for words I can see you sitting there Where you won’t reciprocate Even as the hours pass You stay as a mannequin Fix yourself with someone else It ain't gonna work out Like a band-aid made of flesh Ugly scars for duplicates Cause I won’t stay that long If you leave me out all on my own Without an answer, I’m telling you I won’t last too long There was an idea Of us somewhere here But it got lost again When I tried to find your hand One wanted privacy Another wanted intimacy Who am I supposed to be? To make it last until the end Cause I won’t stay that long If you leave me out all on my own Without an answer, I’m telling you I won’t last too long Cause I won’t stay that long If you leave me out all on my own Without an answer, I’m telling you I won’t last too long Now and forever Hot and cold Red and blue but never purple Now and forever Hot and cold Red and blue but never purple Am I, over-thinking things? Am I, as easy to read as I think? Am I, photorealistic? Am I, am I, more than our small talks? Am I, waiting for nothing? Am I, one of those stupid boys? Am I, getting closer to you? Am I, am I, more than a distraction? Am I, am I a mantra in your day-to-day? Am I, am I found out to be left behind? Am I, am I more than just a passing glance? Am I, am I any more than a pretty name? No matter how far you go, I will Be the cause and wilts inside your head No matter how far you go, I will Be drawing up plans inside your head No matter how far you go, I will Be left alone inside my head No matter how far you go, I will Be dreaming up smoke inside my head

She passes me once again Zipping my life and mouth She’s got her life sorted out While I’m here, a sordid loser I wish there was something there To pull us close once again Is this the last of my sight Incognito, desperado I turned into; oxygen Let me inhale you too A buttonhole, come diagnose Interweave our collars close All that ‘I love yous’, is nothing less Nothing more, behind closed minds Cause I don’t know you, you’re only a dream Defining of my loneliness I wanna be, manic and dazed Excuses to tell you everything No self-control, irresponsible To ever look beyond my heart I wish I was, brave enough To run into my dreams again Glimmering, every chance Self-sabotage before you were I turned into; oxygen Let me inhale you too A buttonhole, come diagnose Interweave our collars close I turned into; oxygen Let me inhale you too A buttonhole, come diagnose Interweave our collars close

I have a problem with Letting off fantasies Afflicted with A blur of sentimental ailments I wanted to believe that I could fall to faith I’m tired, incapable of playing Cat and mouse anymore Shouldn’t I chase you instead of my imagination How should I feel or act to make us work this time Hints I’d rather not drop, is it weird to say that I miss you When I don't really know you? Please stay in my head Save my heart as you remain right now Here's to me watching you Drop to the end of this line Keep my gaze up till the Sun Turns me blind again Aim for the sky Where no one gets hurt Shouldn’t I chase you instead of my imagination How should I feel or act to make us work this time Hints I’d rather not drop, is it weird to say that I miss you When I don't really know you?

Decay don’t dare, don’t fight it, it’s a Wrestle against my smouldering love Where happiness is incoherence I endlessly worship an idea of you Silence reigns here tonight in all the voices There will be no solace in getting answers Where I try to try, to make me think twice It was better when I used to ignore every sign Ah, ah, ah, as much as I could admit We've never been here and nothing will change I’m a little too stubborn and a little too stupid To confess how I feel about our dawning surroundings gone up in smoke This was never up to me from the get go For the way I feel at every avenue Of smiles that hint at a chance of anything But this will never make sense to you anyways Let’s sin, in immolation A limb for a limb to make a pedestal And I will be here waiting for Waiting for you at the end where ankles melt and meld as one Skins touch, the fire flighting The march of our skins The redness on our cheeks And I refuse to make amends, we wait here still Until we’re pale Until we’re pale Until we’re dead You can tell me I'm above average But that's what everyone that left said too “I'm pretty sure someone's around the corner” Just like how there's so many fish in the sea There's so many fish in the sea I’ve got a lousy arm and a tug on my heart strings Why can't I catch anything more Than a fleeting feeling drowning in the ocean Why don’t you lead with directions for once These circumstances become a bad joke I’m turning up vengeful and irrational On a one-sided mind pollution I’d refuse to clean I wasted all this time rambling about fishing In hopes we run out of air underwater Where I can suffocate the truth out of you So you can be honest to me for once Let’s sin, in immolation A limb for a limb to make a pedestal And I will be here waiting for Waiting for you at the end where ankles melt and meld as one Skins touch, the fire flighting The march of our skins The redness on our cheeks And I refuse to make amends, we wait here still Until we’re pale Until we’re pale Until we’re dead No one notices the loneliness until there is love to compare Suddenly the silence seems so real And the space turn to crushing walls of steel The vices, both crushing and tempting to the human mind

Used to be hard to talk from the nerves Now I’m afraid of what we’d be Could I even let you in on anything I feel Doubts to repair my fall Rather be stuck in the possibilities In inversion: All my failures In a way, I’d be proud of never hurting you Repent, for all the things I’ve turn to I wish I could but I could never tell you Maybe it’s a matter of time until I wait for “too late” again Stay around, and you’ll there’s nothing on display Confidence is just a pretty sign Not afraid of the nos, I’ve grown to realise More on what I couldn’t give Another day waking up, feeling so weak Uneasy for hours on end Delaying what could've been until it can’t I'm giving time to figure out nothing at all I wish I could but I could never tell you Maybe it’s a matter of time until I wait for “too late” again

Break through the fantasies Bring in reality Break through the fantasies Bring in reality Break through the fantasies Bring in reality, reality In a dream that I can’t remember Are you more than ‘in my mind’? In a dream that I can’t remember Are you more than ‘in my mind’? In a dream that I can’t remember Are you more than ‘in my mind’? In a dream that I can’t remember Will you come to set me free?

Part 1: Breathe Can you help yourself? When you’re on your own Can you feel it simmer? The feelings this year Can you figure it out? In the time you had The daylight fades away We wane away, we wade our time And I don’t want you to Hear out my advice You need to pan it out To understand yourself You know well, it won’t happen A dream inside your head So I’m, I’m sitting here I sit here waiting Waiting Waiting for time you’d reach Reach round my way My way, my way Waiting for your conscience away Away from here, away But I can’t help you If you don’t try to come my way But I can’t help you If you don’t try to leave your head But I can’t help you If you don’t try to run away But I can’t help you If you don’t try to take that chance An excuse to think it through Before I leave myself again Down on memory lane Is a bad situation For all parties involved You’ll try in vain again Maybe you’ll learn this time Or you’ll see me in the mirror Part 2: Soliloquy “Too young, you're too young Innocent option, a misguided endeavour For what's best, it’s time you accept Will you find meaning, in the sub-text? Lack of understanding, lesser through your growth In fear and in pain, of the unknown Your lofty ideas of love, will only get to here Before you're found out, and left alone” Looking at signs for fun, I can't provide except a few silly songs I guess you figured out, so you started to leave We met by chance but end in choice, did I ever do anything right by you? Intentions clear as day, would it change anything? Without opportunities or dignity, I ran into the first thing that provided freedom I led myself on, a double-take of conflict Because I didn’t want to hear reason, latching onto a voice to call my own I will forget you, I can promise this much The color of disappointment never changes hue, as much as I can rub my eyes A person is not, an idea to toy with Fading in common courtesy til’ I go deaf, confiding the world with a chance to be weak here I am all these things, anxious without a doubt “A cure for my loneliness”, I’ll shout to the Heavens How melodramatic, in desperation There was never anything special about you, I just wanted to figure out love It's time I stopped caring, ‘bout the way I dress again Part 3: Oyasumi Too busy seeing my way Maybe you are stressed out This is going nowhere Or am I, just finding excuses? Welcome home, my sweet heart Welcome home, my sweet love I’m no longer here, I’ve been moving on I’m no longer here, cause I’ve been moving on Inhale, exhale